Dfferin Update 4

End of Week 6 Differin

Wow i almost forgot to do my weekly update this week because of the long holiday, i thought today was Monday. Happy Lunar New Year to all Chinese!

Anyways, my skin has tone down. Ever so slightly though. I have a close cousin who is facing the same hormonal acne difficulties as me. We started around the same time? But she isn't on Differin. She uses other OTC products. And.. her face has tone down way a lot more than me. Of course i'm pretty jealous because who doesn't want clear skin and in our case, improving our skin. She's just dealing with scars. But anyways again, it's always YMMV. So i still gotta stay positive, i mean it's not like mine aren't improving.

At the moment, i still have like maybe 5 pimples? Those hard ones where it takes weeks to heal. But it doesn't have white pus or a head. Just red underneath the skin. My forehead CCs has start to purge a little but it's not as bad as how my cheeks purged. My chin area is pretty much clear except a little white heads near the mouth area. I believe it's from last week purge that is healing slowly.

My cheeks however, sigh. My cheeks are my biggest battle. For the most part, it's not as bad as how i started Differin. But on my left, there's 2 big pustules. It doesn't bother me that much because pustules when it dries up i can just hydrocolloid plaster them up and within a week it'll be okay. The major thing i'm dealing with right now is my left cheek. All the underneath thingy bajingy that has been hidden under the skin when taut, went up the surface ever so slowly. My right side was much faster. So now it's the left side. I'm having like tons of CCs on my left. And like 3-4 pimples.

So yeah it's not as bad as the first few weeks, but it's definitely not clear yet. And I don't know what pattern it has right now, but i'm just really afraid that it'll get worse.. I'm scared that those CCs on my cheeks will turn into pimples :(

Although, i don't know whether it's because i've been too cooped up in the house for far too long, but i have slightly more confidence going out with makeup. And i mean slightly, slightly. Because of CCs, my face looks terrible with foundation. Makeup enhance those textures. *cries*

Looking at my face on my phone right now.. bleagh i just spotted a new pimple. And my face is still very texturized. sigh.. When will this nightmare ends.

The Face Shop Nail Polish Review

The FacShop has a few range of Nail Polish but today I'm going to review on the Trendy Nails Basic Original Nail Polish.

Item

Price: S$3.50 

Colour: BR803

Amount: 7ml / 0.23 fl. oz.

Where to buy: The FaceShop

I bought this last December to get that perfect nude. This was such a pretty everyday colour. This was the closest nude i could find. Though it has a hint of peachy pink to it. I like my nude to be towards the brown-ish side.

Packaging

Really chic looking. I love how block-y and square-ish bottom it has so it's easy to store. And the glass looking packaging against a semi matte black applicator holder just adds a hint of minimalist look on it.

Formula

I have not try a lot of nail polish but I have my time with really bad nail polish too. I must say, for the price, the consistency of the liquid polish is just nice. It's not hard to apply because it's not too thick and not to thin. 

Be careful though, now that i'm using it back today, i found the formula to be quite tacky and hard to apply. I don't know if it's because it's shelving life is short or because i have not touch this polish for like 2 months now.

Application

It applies smoothly and not streaky. Does not dry too fast so you can quickly amend the way you apply the polish.

Pretty standard applicator. Not that difficult to apply because the width is pretty thick. I only had slight problems doing corners of my nails like i always do. Haha.

This was two coats. Although, i feel that you can still get by with one coat. It's pretty opaque and dries semi-matte, semi-glossy. If a light colour is already opaque, I can only imagine how the darker colours would apply! This was also applied without base coat. 

Lasting power

Pretty lasting i must say. Doesn't chip easily and in the picture it's already my day 3 wear! 

Verdict

For the price and the amount you are getting, I think this is an awesome product. I'm very sure I will be going back to purchase more. 

I rate 5/5!

Beauty Favourites 2016

Hey girlsss! I'm so sorry for the long awaited post but here it comes! First and foremost, sorry for the long overdue post. I've been stuck in a rut and feeling depress from my personal life. But i want to try to hit this post up before February comes along. Also, i'm so sorry on the badly done polish. Haha.. Okay now let's get on to the best of beauty 2016.

Face

1. CoverGirl 3 in 1 Outlast Stay Fabulous Foundation

I've been wearing this since 2014! Doesn't break me out at all. Fairly long lasting about 8 hours plus? Consistency of the liuid is quite light on the skin. Buildable coverage too :) Although right now my skin has been so uneven recently and I have a feeling I need to find a new match! Sigh. Because I already have another back up *cries

Where to buy: Carousell or Amazon

2. Innisfree No Sebum Blur Mineral Powder:

[Picture taken from google because i have used up mine.]

The best setting powder yet. Cheap and good. It's really long lasting and again, feels light on the skin. You don't feel cakey when it's peck on a ton. One thing to take note though, it has white forecast when you're taking photography flashbacks. I don't really mind because I don't take flash photography.

Where to buy: roseroseshop.com or Innisfree @ Bugis

Brows

1. Innisfree Auto Eyebrow Pencil

This is the dual ended one. I love how it's shaped in a way that is easy to follow my brow shape. And the spoolie is just the right size to brush my rather thick eyebrows. Nothing much to say about this product except it's really affordable, great colour pay off and doesn't break me out.

Where to buy: roseroseshop.com or Innisfree @ Bugis

2. Soap&Glory Archery

Love this brow product so much. Initially the one that made me fall in love was another similar product. The tip was similar to the Innisfree one. And the other end is a brow gel. But i bought it in Europe. This was the only one that is available in SEA. Still love this one nonetheless. It matches my eyebrow colour the closest. The thing that i'm kinda iffy about is the shape of the wax pencil that. It's not as precise as i thought it would be (Think ABH Brow Wiz precise). But I still use this to death and if i want a really precise drawing, i always use the brow tint end for it. It's not available in Singapore though. Bought this in Bangkok.

Where to buy: I'm not sure as this was bought in Bangkok

Eyes

1. MAC painterly paint pot in Soft Ochre

I've been wanting this product for so long. Because i have quite the discolouration on my eyelids and it's so hard to make shadows show up on me. This thing though is hella expensive to me so i searched high and low for dupes of this. But there's none. So my dad finally bought it for me from Paris. And omg.. Now i realize why it's hard to dupe it and why it's expensive. Excellent quality with a decent amount of product in the jar. Really opaque and makes my shadows last all day, even without primer. Yes, this can act as a primer alone and your shadows will still last for hours. When i'm done with this, i can't wait to try the other colours!

Where to buy: MAC @ Bugis

2. Missha x Line quads Eye Colour Studio Mini in Sally

 A little anecdote.. I regretted so so much not purchasing it whilst I was in Korea (~S$14) but in Singapore it's S$30+! Imagine that. But of course I source out Carousell and also Qoo10 Korean resellers. In the end I got it for $20. Haha. Anyhow, I love this palette because of the matte orange colour. I can't find any eyeshadow like this anywhere!! That Colour is so unique and it compliments my olive skin tone so well. The formula is buttery and very well pigmented on the lids. Very little fall outs too.

Where to buy: Limited edition so i don't think it's available anymore. Or you can try Sweetbox @ Qoo10

3. Naked 3 Palette

I got this like 2 years ago but only the past few month i've been religiously wearing it. Just like the original NAKED palette, product is amazing. A little fallout though but i've been loving the colour Trick and Nooner paired up with my Missha palette. And the dual ended brush it comes with? Superb too! Only complain? It's shade ranges isn't that much. No matter how much you try, the looks you will get from this palette will look really similar.

Where to buy: sephora.com.sg or Sephora @ ION Orchard

4. Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara

I got this because of a recommendation from a Beauty Youtuber here in Singapore. And thanks to her, i've been through tons of tubes. Whenever i have this on, my friends always compliments me. At times my fiance even thinks i'm using falsies!

Where to buy: Watsons

5. Duo adhesive

This year i started learning how to properly wear falsies. To save up, i tried using tons of eyelash glue just to see if i can find a cheaper alternative. But nope, this is the one that really holds up. I haven't try that many though.

Where to buy: SASA @ ViVo City or Sephora @ ION Orchard

Lips

1. Menow Kissproof in 05

Okay.. I know a lot of people hate this product. I do too. It's super dry and when you pull it on your lips too hard, it can even cause some blood (yikes!) But i loved this colour too much. This year was the year that i learnt i had strong olive undertones so warm nudes like this with a hint of orange really compliments me well. Despite the bad formula, i used it on a daily and even bought a back up.

Where to buy: Ebay or Masjid India Pasar Malam

2. Colorpop Lippie Stix in Brink

This is my everyday nude pink. I bought this when Colourpop suddenly blooms. It's quite creamy and i love how it's kinda precise on the lipstick shape so it's easy to draw. If it's not my Menow kissproof that i'm wearing, it'll be this on my lips all day when i'm in school.

Where to buy: Colorpop international website or Carousell

3. The Balm Long Lasting Liquid lipstick in Commited

As mentioned earlier, knowing how olive my undertones were, it can be quite tricky to find a perfect pink. But this. This.. THIS. This is the perfect pink for my lips! I was scared of how it would turn out on my lips that's why i bought a mini travel size one. But once this is done, i'll definitely buy the full size, along with other colours. It's because the formula is so creamy, long lasting and easy to apply on the lips. And the minty scent is a plus point for me.

Where to buy: Carousell sells cheaper or you can get at SASA @ Causeway Point

4. Silkygirl Matte Junkie Lip Cream in Retro 01

I bought this in hopes to find a dupe for my Menow Kissproof in 05. Because at one time i just couldn't take how dry it was. Unfortunately, this colour was not an exact dupe. But still a pretty colour though. It's slightly on a brighter coral-ly orange shade as compared to Menow 05. For formulation, this was a little underwhelming for my liking. For a liquid lipstick it was quite drying and does not stay long on the lips. But i wore this quite often, especially if i want a pop of colour.

Where to buy: Watsons or Guardian

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That is it for this post. It's not a ton of products because I did not wear a lot of makeup this year. If you read my earlier post, some of you might know that i struggle with hormonal acne around mid of the year. My skin is super sensitive too, so it takes quite awhile for me to test on face products. Anyhow, 2016 was the year i really got into eyeshadows and lashes because i want it to stand out against my bad skin. I also fell in love with the trends of glitters on the lid and also the liquid lipstick craze in 2016. As for 2017 i foresee alot of warm palettes coming up because of such great hits from Morphe 35O and the Modern Renaissance palette.

My makeup goal in 2017 however is to have some project pan that i might discuss in future post. For now, annyeong!

Differin Update 3

End of Week 5 Differin

So I think i kinda jinx myself last week. Because whatever I said in my last post, when down the drain. Yups it wasn't the pattern that I had wished it was. In fact my left cheek was angry and it burst to a million pimples. When I wore make up the bumps protrude more and it's as if my cheeks looks like barnacles in the sea. :( my right side grew like one or two new pimples too.

And the thing about healing fast. Guess what. I haven't had any pimples that grew last week turned into pustules. Very upset. Very very upset. Because there is no way I can hollocoid plaster that shit up. So yup I'm still getting bumpy face. And this Saturday I have to attend a birthday party. I really hope everything will stop swelling and go down. I'm not hoping for clear skin by this sat because I know it's clearly impossible. I just hope no new pimples and old pimples go down.

And lastly I keep comparing myself to others who had gone through this course of medication. And I keep telling and asking why aren't my results the same. Why is it at week 4 people stop purging. Why am I not? That sort of thing. I fail to forget that every person skin is different. And in every case, YMMVV.

I'm sorry. Things has been really hard lately. I hope for a better February :(

ETA: I'm actually thinking that because I have stopped doxy and that is why my skin is behaving this way. That is what I'm afraid of. Hope it's not though. Because I don't want to be dependent on medications. If topical creams that I have to live with, it's fine. But not medications and popping pills for a lifetime.

Doxy + Differin Update 2

End of week 4 Differin, end of week 8 Doxy

Hi pals, i'm late on this update by a day. But here it goes. I have ended my Doxycycline medication. So far, i think it's crap. Because it didn't help my pimples at bay. Anyway since my derm appointment is still a month away, I've been drinking Vitamin C (Redoxon) instead. I mean Doxy is also a kind of antibiotics, right?

Anyway, pimple update. I have lesser "under the skin" bumps. Way lesser than what i have started. Lesser CCs too. Though there is still a bunch of them that have not purge. Pimples are still there. Growing new ones everyday. Although right now i kinda see a pattern for what will happen weekly.

Tuesdays are usually inflamed new pimples that suddenly grows. I realized this from pictures i took everyday and also the weekly update i've been posting here. And Tuesdays are usually the worst my skin will look like and the most pimple that will appear. Those red bumps and all. Wednesday and Thursday.. those growing pimples will come up to a white filled pus (pustules) and by friday usually i can gently pop it and patch it. Saturday and Sunday mostly are healing days. Monday are the only day that my skin looks "normal". Normal as in normal as compared to the other days of the week.

Of course i still feel depressed. But i have learn to accept this. Whatever feelings and however i react to this situation, the results aren't overnight. I still have 8 weeks to see if DIfferin realy does work on me or not. And about 4-5 weeks to see a Dermatologist. So that is something to look forward to. I hope the doctor will diagnose and i'll finally learn what is happening to my skin.

I still refrain myself from going out because my skin still looks hideous with makeup on. Like i mention, there are still tons of CCs and pimples. Although, right now, the amount of pimples i get each week are slightly lesser than the first few weeks. And i'm quite happy as to how some pimples are healing faster. Especially my cyst. I had 2 big cyst on my right cheek and it legit took a month to heal. I had another cyst on my left. And it's healing relatively fast like about a week.

As of right now, since it's a wednesday here, my face has a number of pustules. So i'm looking forward to the weeks to come and hopefully it'll get better.

PS: Sorry i've been withholding my 2016 best of beauty post. I don't know when it'll come. But not now. I'm really too stressful on my skin and a major financial issue i've been having. 

ETA: this was actually drafted last week but I didn't make it live. Hence today's date

Doxy + Differin Update

End of week 3 Differin, end of week 7 Doxy

I honestly just wanna hide somewhere and cry. It's getting worse. Last Friday, things started to look up for me. Like there wasn't any new pimple and I thought my IB period has finally ended. But lo and behold, yesterday I woke up to massive new breakout on my left cheek. I was super depressed. Furthermore I'm starting work in a few days time :(

Today I woke up to even more new pimple and some pimple from yesterday has form the white head (white pus?) underneath. This is so frustrating. I feel like I'm back in week one. Pastules, nodules and such. Painful cheeks even when smiling. :(

I kept a photo log too. And it gets even more depressing because honestly I don't think I'm having any sorts of improvements. CCs still there, millions of pimples, scarring. Sigh and my cheeks are literally getting more scars and the lesser of my colored skin are showing through. And to think my last update I already mention this...well it gets worse alright :(

I hate this :( I can't take it any longer.  I really wanna stop using Differin. And my doxy isn't even helping one bit from stoping the pimples or reducing it. :( a lot of people mention to just keep to the program. But I'm so scared. What if it gets worse, like this product wasn't for me... The only way to find out is through my derm. Which my appointment is still weeksssss ahead :( and what if the Differin IS working and if I stop, I miss a few weeks and then I have to start all over.

I really can't stand this. I feel like going the short way out..LASER. But sigh it's super expensive. $500 per session. On average people go on 5 session. So that's like 2.5K :( And my savings are meant for my school debt. Unless I extend my school loan..AGAIN

This is the worst I've ever been in my entire life. Every single person who saw me without makeup used to say my face wasn't that bad. Like even in my worst days ( or so I thought) , they would say it's okay. Be patient yada yada.. But right now... It's all "why is your face so bad?" "Aren't you scared ?"

FUCK THIS.

IM TOO DEPRESS TO EVEN BE DOING ANYTHING!!

Favourites 2016 : LifeStyle (Part 2)

In this post, i'll be sharing with you girls my favourite shows and music for the year 2016. With how stress i was this year, watching shows was a channel for me to distant myself from overthinking. I definitely got into more shows this year, than the previous year.

TV Shows

6. Friends

I know it's an old show but I just cannot miss this out because I will always watch this show all year around. Be it playing the show as a background while I sleep, run, getting ready or just revisiting random episodes. It's a classic and forever will be a favourite of mine.

5. Narcos

This show kept me at the edge of my seat. The rise and fall of Pablo Escabor is very intriguing and you'll just keep wanting to see how the story enfolds episode by episode. Spectacular show. Thank god it's a netflix original so all the episodes are released at one time.

4. Black Mirror

Every episode of Black Mirror feels like a movie. You'll see how everyday situation entails advanced technology. And how the dark side of technology can take over. Not all episodes are amazing to me. Some really stuck on to me for weeks and constantly gets me thinking. I'm still not over some episode because of how much it messes with my head. Every episode is quite heavy to comprehend in my opinion so I always watch one episode per week or a few days.

3. Daredevil

How can I not mention a marvel show? In my opinion Daredevil S2 is the best marvel show in Netflix. And sorry, Luke Cage was meh for me. Although I love cottonmouth. Hehe. But anyways, I gotta say The Punisher definitely stole the show on this one. Definitely top 3 favourite superhero of mine of all time.

2. Stranger Things

What more can I say? A definite Netflix Original favourite for people's choice in 2016. Best Sci-Fi show that's great for family. Can't wait for season 2. I hope there will be another Eleven appearance!

1. Running Man

I know this is not a TV Show per se. But I can't leave out my all time favourite variety show! Only this year did I start watching religiously. And halfway while I was catching up since episode 1, SBS announced they will be ending the show in Feb 2017. It's really sad, because I was truly hoping for a season 2. Something like 2D1N., with a totally new cast. Because I truly believe that the original cast should move on. They've been doing this for seven years and I feel that all the games they've been playing are no surprise to them anymore. They do not have the drive they had like the early episodes. And of cos, they are aging. For example, I pity Jong Kook because I don't think he'll be able to live up to people's expectation of his Sparta image. I love each member dearly, and wish for them to move on and concentrate on their individual projects. I'd say, the end of Running Man isn't so bad after all. They deserve their Mondays filming time on something else. 7012 forever <3

Honourable mention: Jessica Jones

I didn't favour Jessica too much though. What sold me on this was the villain. Yes, Kilgrave. Amazing character and something I feel like a great villain should be. Invincible, heartless, evil but at the same time we'll pity his character for his sad past. Something I feel like DC should look into more.

Music

Wow this post got longer than I expected it to be. But I do not have much music that I would like to share because i still listen to the same old genre. Although this year I have a new love for instrumental. Therefore this year favorites goes to 65daysofstatic. They're amazing, give it a listen if you love post rock, instrumental or experimental. Another band I would love to mention is Mew. What more can I say. They have been my favorites since forever and they just keep getting better and better.

That's all for now. Stay tune for my best of beauty 2016 in my next post. Stay healthy, xoxo

Favourites 2016 : Beauty & Skincare (Part 1)

For this year, i may not have much skincare and beauty favourites because of how my skin has been acting up the whole year. And some of these items i have not used for the past 2-3 months with the advices from my GP and doctor.
Also, keep in mind these kinds of posts aren't reviews so i'm not going to talk about each product thoroughly.

Skincare

1. COSRX Low PH Cleanser

This year i learnt how important low PH cleanser is. And this stuff was wonderful. Bought it for the third time already. However since I've gone into Doxycycline i stopped using it, as my GP  provided me with a medicated cleanser that's hypoallergenic. I still use this sparingly though. Normally, when i use heavy makeup and this stuffs really cleans it all.

( Where to buy: https://www.roseroseshop.com/cosrx-low-ph-good-morning-gel-cleanser.html )

2. Banila Co Clean It Zero

Second tub. This bad boy is magic. Cleans every single makeup dirt on your face right away. You have to double cleanse with this though as it will leave like an oily residue after washing. I only use this when there's a need to remove makeup (especially tough waterproof makeup). The only down side to this is that sometimes it stings my eye? Just a slight sting, though. I heard that Heimish balm is just as good without stinging the eye. But it's more expensive. Gotta try that one day.

( Where to buy: https://www.roseroseshop.com/banila-co-clean-it-zero-purity.html )

3. BHA Stridex Red Box

image taken from iHerb

This stuff works wonders for my CCs early part of the year. But again, since my Doxy + Diferrin, i have stop using because this is some strong stuff.

( Where to buy: http://sg.iherb.com/Stridex-Single-Step-Acne-Control-Maximum-Alcohol-Free-55-Soft-Touch-Pads/44104 )

4. COSRX Acne patch

This works best when your pimple has come to a head. Once you patch it on, results are basically overnight. It absorbs all the pus and nasty stuff so the next day your pimple will 100% shrink. I've bought like maybe 20? It's that amazing!

( Where to buy: https://www.roseroseshop.com/cosrx-2016-best-100-acne-pimple-master-patch.html )

5. Honourable mention: Biore Watery Essence Sunscreen

I've been using this stuff since i was 18 maybe? I love this stuff so much. It's lightweight, no white cast and a great base for your makeup. However only the start of this year that i realized it isn't sweatproof and not long lasting! Learnt the hard way because the long unshaded walks that i have to walk to school melted it off so easily.. Grr. So i have to reapply. Other than that, i still love it and i still use it!

( Where to buy: Any drugstore outlets. I usually get mine in Watsons. )

That's all for my favourites for skincare. There's so many things that i feel that didn't work out for me (might be the cause of my acne and bumps) or some products that I used are just meh or underwhelming this year. It's super difficult and annoying at the same time to find the right things for my overly sensitive and acne prone skin. Haha.. i hope to find better products this year once my medication stops. Part 2 will be on makeup so stay tuned. Ciao for now :)

Favourites 2016 : LifeStyle (Part 1)

Second post of the day, because why not? My acne story was a little depressing. So i thought maybe i would share with you guys my Lifestyle and random favourites of 2016!

Food

1. Teokbokki

(picture taken from Google)

I tried the cheese with condensed milk too, in Korea.

I went to Korea and i fell in love with this street snack. When i came back i went on a hunt to find the perfect teokbokki in Singapore. So far.. None! The search continues..

2. Yoogane

This place in Korea was amazing. There was never a day that i stop thinking about it and craving for it! I've acquired a taste for Korean food this year. So this year i was on a constant hunt for various korean food. Their crispy fried chicken, dakgalbi, ramyeon and BBQ food... *Salivating just by thinking about it*

Game

1. Walking Dead Season 2

I played the game early last year however i hate having jump scares so i waited for my fiance to play with me. But I couldn't wait any longer so come December i completed the whole season and it was amazing. Not as great as Season 1 but it was good enough for me to thirst for Season 3.

2. Panda Pop!

I have been playing this game for years now. And it is still one of my favourite games. I'm stuck at this level since forever though. And after awhile you will come to realize that some levels were repeated. I felt kinda cheated after battling those difficult level and then having to see them again..So i stopped playing it. 

3. 1010!

The new addiction. I saw some beauty youtuber play it and thought it was cool. So i download it. And i cant stop playing and beating previous highscore. As of now, none of my friends or family can beat my current highscore. 

4. The Sims 3

This year i was introduced to Steam and holy moly the endless games that is available and the flash sales!! I have bought quite a few games but Sims 3 was the reason i download this bad boy. I played for hours for a month or so. 

Movie

Hands down, Civil War!!!
Honourable mention : Apocalypse

That's all for part 1. I also want to mention that 2016 wasn't so great for me. By far one of the hardest if not the hardest years of my life. Apart from my constant battle with acne this year there were so many unfortunate things that happen to me. However there were amazing highlights in 2016 too. Which was buying a house, getting engaged and visiting Korea! I hope 2017 would be better. That's all for now. And the next post for lifestyle i would cover Favourites 2016 for Shows and Music. 

Doxyxycline + Differin Log

As much as i love beauty stuffs, my skin is at the worst condition in my entire life. So instead, i would love to share my personal experience on my prescribed medication that has been given to me thus far.

Acne History

A little bit of my acne background that you guys might want to know.. I have had acne for as long a i could remember. As early as 11 yo maybe? Mostly i struggle with CCs that never seem to go away and just a few pimples that will appear randomly on my face often. I have back acne too but it was quite mild. After i left secondary school, my skin was at it's best and maintain for a few years. Other than a few PIH/PIE, the rest of my skin was quite flawless.
Late 2013 i start getting minor CCs on my forehead. And i thought it could be because of my runs? I don't usually put up my hair so sweat can kinda built up on my forehead. My skincare routine did not change and my makeup was pretty much the same products that i have been using.

Going March of 2014, my skin was covered in CCs. So i went to see a GP and was prescribed clindamycin phosphate with the lowest concentration. And as all medication i read online, i had the wonderful experience of an initial breakout (IB). :( At that point of time i felt like my skin was at it's worst. I cried most of the time because it's been awhile since i had acne. :( But i recovered quickly. Within 6 months it was pretty clear.
My skin was pretty much clear the next year. Late 2015 i had little CCs on my forehead. I managed to clear it up using BHA and AHA stridex. Again, had IB but it wasn't so bad. I still could go school without makeup. Pretty much cleared up after 3 months or so just PIH/PIE scarring.

Acne Now

Come June 2016, my face started acting up. And i'm pretty sure it's because i destroyed my skin barrier from trying too much product from Asian Skincare. So i stopped using everything and went to see a derm. He mentioned it was hormonal acne and could be products too. I was on Borymycin IIRC, for 2 months and stopped since my skin was healing. And then again just dealing with scars.

Mid Sept 2016 was when all hell broke loose. I had these major acne thing that is the worst that i have ever seen. It is somewhat like CCs but it's deep into the skin. Similar to what i had in 2014. However unlike 2014, these were literally appearing at every single space on my skin. I was pretty sure a cream from COSRX that i used was the culprit. It felt like sandpaper when i brush my hands on my face. I started crying again(alot too) knowing what i have to go through (IB again).

Medication

So yup, i visited my family GP because all of a sudden this bumps under the skin..And i'm talking like really under the skin, it only looks horrendous when my skin was pulled taut. Anyways, these monsters started to look reddish and itchy! My GP said it look like a yeast infection. However she still gave me acne medication only. Doxycycline for 1 month and visit her once done.

End of Week 3: IB started and again i felt defeated and couldn't wait for the 1 month completion. So i went to a polyclinic so i can get a referral to a dermatologist at National Skin Centre. Because i really wanna go on a subsidized stronger medication(only a derm can prescribe, not a GP).
Doctor gave me 2 months Doxy + Differin cream to apply once a day. Was referred to derm at KTPH. And like all govt subsidy, the long waiting list. Appointment only in Feb :(

End of Week 4: Skin pretty much keep popping, at least one new pimple a day. I have not started using differin since doctor says it can cause photo-sensitivity. And i had a holiday end of the week in hot and humid Kuala Lumpur

End of Week 5/ End of Week 1 (Differin): WORST SKIN I HAVE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE. Once i applied that differin, it's crazy how fast my face reacted to it. All those tiny shits came to the surface. There was still those tiny bumps under skin. STILL ALOT. Like hundreds and clusters >.< Knowing that these things will all come to a surface eventually.. I cry every day at the thought of it. Just felt down and depress throughout the week. My face was filled with SO MANY GOD DAMN PIMPLES. And more to come.. :( And to think i had worst skin in 2014?? This was x10 worse!!

End of Week 6/ Week 2 (Differin): I thought it has reached it's worst but nope, MORE pimples pop up and in clusters! :( pastules, papules and nodules. Even those stubborn tiny bumps hidden under the skin has now been visible and becoming CCs. This week was a total nightmare. I went out wearing a mask. It was that bad.

31/12/17 was the start of week 7/ week 3 (Differin). Although my pimples kept coming (and it still is!), some of them healed really fast so maybe the differin is really working? Past weekend i've been scaring myself reading people's log. :( Thinking all this might be a bad thing. However many mentioned that again this is just the normal IB where everything is coming to a surface.

Also, alot have mentioned to stick to it and finish the course. At least 12 weeks to tell and decide whether it is working or not. Mainly at the start of 8 week people start to show positive results with differin. So i'm going to still wait. Doxy supposed to keep pimples at bay though, i heard. Unfortunately for me it's not working? So i'm just going to finish the 2 months course that Doctor has given me. And wait for my derm appointment in Feb to see the next step.

Will update weekly, guys. As of now, i'm going to stick to the program and just hide at home. It's really terrible :( Because as much as pimples are healed fast, new pimples are popping out, JUST AS FAST. :(

Till next update.

My Life in Pocket

Hi pals, i don't know who might be reading this, but welcome. I always had a blog but never maintained it. 2017 has commence and i thought why not? Plus i have a lot of extra time now.

As an introduction to this blog and what it might potentially be filled with, i have a passion for anything beauty, tv series and korean varieties. Besides beauty reviews and lifestyle post, I plan to dictate snippets of my life too. Also another reason i created this blog is to improve my ENGLISH!! sorry for bad english

That's all for now. Happy New Year :)