Doxy + Differin Update

End of week 3 Differin, end of week 7 Doxy

I honestly just wanna hide somewhere and cry. It's getting worse. Last Friday, things started to look up for me. Like there wasn't any new pimple and I thought my IB period has finally ended. But lo and behold, yesterday I woke up to massive new breakout on my left cheek. I was super depressed. Furthermore I'm starting work in a few days time :(

Today I woke up to even more new pimple and some pimple from yesterday has form the white head (white pus?) underneath. This is so frustrating. I feel like I'm back in week one. Pastules, nodules and such. Painful cheeks even when smiling. :(

I kept a photo log too. And it gets even more depressing because honestly I don't think I'm having any sorts of improvements. CCs still there, millions of pimples, scarring. Sigh and my cheeks are literally getting more scars and the lesser of my colored skin are showing through. And to think my last update I already mention this...well it gets worse alright :(

I hate this :( I can't take it any longer.  I really wanna stop using Differin. And my doxy isn't even helping one bit from stoping the pimples or reducing it. :( a lot of people mention to just keep to the program. But I'm so scared. What if it gets worse, like this product wasn't for me... The only way to find out is through my derm. Which my appointment is still weeksssss ahead :( and what if the Differin IS working and if I stop, I miss a few weeks and then I have to start all over.

I really can't stand this. I feel like going the short way out..LASER. But sigh it's super expensive. $500 per session. On average people go on 5 session. So that's like 2.5K :( And my savings are meant for my school debt. Unless I extend my school loan..AGAIN

This is the worst I've ever been in my entire life. Every single person who saw me without makeup used to say my face wasn't that bad. Like even in my worst days ( or so I thought) , they would say it's okay. Be patient yada yada.. But right now... It's all "why is your face so bad?" "Aren't you scared ?"

FUCK THIS.

IM TOO DEPRESS TO EVEN BE DOING ANYTHING!!